The driving was fun, I love driving, its super relaxing, plus we had allot of great music to Jam to all the way there and back.
we got there did some fun shopping, kinda wished i had picked a better place to go shopping, but, meh what are you gonna do. I did end up getting one AMAZING dress, I left the belt part in the Hostel but I work it without the belt and it looked good so no big deal.
The Hostel we stayed at was super awesome. the people were amazingly nice, the beds were super comfy. and we could walk to the show. True we were liek only a few blocks away from a pretty sketchy area, but they told us where to avaoid, and where all the cool stuff was, and it was clean and everything. I love this place and I will most definatly stay there, or at any other H.I hostel I can in the future. I sare to god, the bunk beds they had, were more comfy than any hotel bed I have ever stayed at!
the show was supurb, I really lieked the venue, apparantlly it used to be a bordello, it had a cool liek balcony area and the like decor was just super pretty. all these carvings and stuff, with epic pilars and the colors were nice, and it had an amazing chandeler over the dace floor. I wish i knew arcitactuaral vocabulary so i could better explain how pretty this building is. But I just love all the archtecture thu all of san fransico. The stage was really close. we sat up at a table in the balcony area for the opening acts and had some side-cars. (which were amazing, and btw the bartender by the dance floor was way better than the one on the balcony). We were having a great time and went out for a smoke a few times, Farmer Dave was really good, who was their first opender, I really liekd it, but it was weird to look down at the dnacefloor and everyone is just....staning there, verry still. verry boring, so we drank and amoked and then we ended up going to the corner during the second opener (becuase they were awful and i was pretty drunk) And michael forced me to eat some pizza, and it was some of the best piza ever. All the food was excellent. Any way, we ended up getting back right as jenny and Johnny were about to take the stage.
I was soo exited, i was worried about the type of people at the show, becuase, I am not a stand still and watch a show kind of girl, I knew micheal and I were gonan be dancing fools, so we went tward the back of the dance floor, and it was just amazing. Their voices are just so god together, I totally freaked out when they played Next Messiah, I really like that song, it just hits me with every note, and it is 9 min, and it changes allot during the corse of the song but dosnt sound random, and I had a great time getting thrown around the floor by Mr. Michael. It was great. I also loved dancing to Big Wave that was probably our best number haahaaa. Animal was supurb liek i knew it would be. Thats is definatlly in my top three of the album. Anyway the whole show was amazing, and I was too drunk to be a stalker at the end of the show. And I ended up fallin on my ass right onto the sidewalk and made micheal eat the words "I will not scoop you up off the floor of the tenderloin"
I liked to be able to have this time with micheal too. I have been feeling like, maybe we are only “best friends” because I am close to him. But I really remembered that I do love to be around him, and I thik he genuinely likes to be around me. I feel like he sems to be changing and getign farther away from me. And that was making me sad, because, I usually have quite a few people very close to me for me to connect with and lean on. And I feel like, I have been encroaching on his personal space, or like being too needy of a friend becuas ehes the only one close by. And I didn’t want to be like all up in his face, especially since he has alex, but I decided to just go with my gut and go for the trip with him and I think it really worked out.
It was also intresting to think about how each freinshp I have is different.
then we went to back to the hostle to change real quick, and the peopel there helped us find someplace to party, which all ended up having lines so we went to a place called cafe mason, where i forgot what i ordered till i got it. but it was amazing, then it was back to the hostle for some monopoly deal.
the next morning we went to the peir for lunch and shopping, which was kinda a let-down, but the lobster soup i had was to die for and totally satisfyed my seafood requirment. i wish we coudl ahve stayed longer, but we came back to some amazing partys in simi, which was a nice way to re-connect with everyone out there becuase its beed so long.
it was a really nice way to get away from everythign and rememebr what happyness feels like. and what it feels liek to just connect with whats around you and experiance new things.
Im a little sad that when i got back allot of my anxity came bac, i dont know what i thought san fran would cure me, I really was hoping to come back and feel liek a completlly new person, and now that i am kind of just hitting the same walls and facing the same fights and struggles, its almost more difficult to stay focused, but What I think i need to remember, that i had an amazing time, I had an amazing experiance and I shouldn't let myself waste it, I shoudl let it revive me and inspire me to get what I need to get done done.